My thoughts of the day: (I've been immobile for the last few days and while I've done enough soul-searching to fill a copy of Joyce's 'Ulysses', this is the first time I've written one of them)...

So...the thought...

How can some people be so intelligent in one way, yet be completely oblivious to something in another? Example: A person can know every little thing about football. Statistics, history, strategy, betting odds, player numbers, etc, but they can't name 6 presidents of the US (excluding Washington, Lincoln and Clinton). I was watching a football game tonight when it dawned on me how many of these people inhabit my life on a daily basis. It's not inherently a 'bad' thing, but it's something that deserves a bit of inquiry.

Am I a model of this behavior? I enjoy music. I play a little on my guitar, have a moderately insane number of discs, and know tons of useless information concerning popular styles of the last half century, but I don't dare to live life strictly by this measure. I pride myself by yearning for knowledge of virtually every subject. I don't know how to change a starter on my car? Well, I feel useless until I either A)Learn, or B)Get told it's easier and safer to have a professional do it. (LOL). I'm not an accomplished chef, but I do experiment from time to time, and never brag about any of it. Does the world view me as a hapless, waste of space? Much like I secretly view these "people' as morons drifting through the void just biding time before the end of time? Hmmmm...

My biggest fear is that I'll discover the faults/imperfections of the world, but also realize that I'm part of the problem. It's hard to admit we're hypocrites in a world that jumps on the first signs of weakness, but isn't that the purest way of looking at things? If we don't live truthfully, aren't we all repeating the mistakes of the past; perpetuating lies and illusions? And doesn't this mean we're doomed to anger, malaise and eventually apathy in a world that demands purpose and meaning?

(Yeah, I'm writing this down! What of it? Heh, as of this writing I can think of only two people that will see it, but that's cool. This journal is more or less a therapeutic channel, so excuse the selfish preaching and cliched philosophizing. It's something I needed to do). :)